i'm in the garden

First of all, don't click on the image to make it bigger. It's all pixellated and weird and I don't know why, but I didn't have another one ready and I think it looks alright small, so leave it be, ok?!!

It's been an interesting few days for me and I've been thinking hard about things as usual. Another bout of illness helped with this as it meant I couldn't do much else other than sit up in bed... things have also been rather quiet as Rory is stuck in Dubai waiting for the ash cloud to blow away.

I have come to several interconnected decisions...

  • I will spend more time in the garden, because it's lovely, and if I don't get out there and look after it, it won't be lovely anymore.
  • I will stop moaning about not having any time to do art and get on with making something beautiful out of what life throws at me. I am needed to be a big part of my granddaughter's life, and whether I like this responsibility or not, it is mine. There is so much about it which is delightful and wonderful and I am in danger of missing that side of it if I am not careful (for which read, if I carry on moaning all the time).
  • I will close my shop for the time being and concentrate on making for pleasure if time allows.
  • I will take more exercise now that spring is here, it always makes me feel better and I have no excuses.
And so I'm off into the windy, sunny garden to dig up some weeds. Have a happy Tuesday.

17 comments:

TheMadHouse said...

What a positive post, sometimes when we can not change the things that are effecting us, the only alternative is to change our thinking about them. Well done for making a start

Pearly Queen said...

I feel just the same, hence I am coming back to England to live...

Frances said...

Sue, as always, you've been creative in your thinking!

I bet that working on that garden is going to be fun, providing lots of exercise, time outdoors at a marvelous time of the year, and a way to connect with powerful nature with all its surprises. (You might also start that granddaughter's gardening interests.)

Best wishes! xo

Gilly said...

Good ideas. Just what mother would have said!!

Magic Cochin said...

That all sounds very wise! Enjoy your garden and making stuff.

Celia

Diva Kreszl said...

may you embrace the challenges and changes life is putting in your path and may they help you to grow in ways you never dreamed possible! God is walking beside you dear one, when the load gets heavy let Him carry it for you:)

Hollace said...

Your granddaughter IS your art project for now--what an opportunity!

marigold jam said...

Glad that you are feeling positive about life now - as Hollace says your grand-daughter is your project and what could be more satisfying and creative than helping to bring up another human being (although I do know it doesn't always look that way from the inside!). gardening is good as it keeps you grounded in both senses of the word and keeps your ming and body occupied and the tiredness that results is a satisfying sort of tiredness and comes with a sense of well being. Do some creativity each day however small and you will feel good in no time - we are all out here rooting for you!

Jane x

Claire said...

Sometimes we need to take stock and work out our priorities.It sounds like you have done this and made some decisions that will make life less stressful and more enjoyable.
Stick to the plan and I am sure it will all work out in the end.
All the best,

Claire X

Bobo Bun said...

I bet you felt liberated by coming to those decisions. It takes hard work and courage to make change and then it feels absolutely right when you have done so.

Life always feels like a balancing act and I like you struggle to maintain doing what I need to with what I enjoy. I completely agree with you about the shop as your creativity will flourish when you are doing it for pleasure alone. I look forward to the moments in between markets when I can make for me and my family alone.

Best wishes and enjoy the garden and your granddaughter.

Lisa x

zabelle said...

these are good ideas, I will take somme too.
have a nice day

elizabethm said...

Sometimes you just have to stop fighting the tide! Great ideas and bound to make you feel more grounded and serene. Just make sure you take the odd day off all for yourself. You could come out here and say hello if you fancied it!

suz said...

Wow-good for you. It's hard to face ourselves and give ourselves what my friend calls a "2x4" moment (as in hit by a piece of wood) and face what is actually important for ourselves and those around us. What happens next could be a big surprise for you! (as my friend also says, let go, let God)

vicki said...

Enjoy your special time in the garden - that is one of my favorite places to be. Seems like it is a perfect time and place for refletions. Here is wishing you some wonderful spring days for your gardening and hopes that your spirits are lifted.

Vicki

Cozy in Texas said...

I so needed to hear your positive thoughts today. I too love to be in the garden and we have such a small window of pleasant weather here in Texas. Spring and Autumn are the best times of year.
Ann
Ann Summerville
Cozy In Texas

greenolive said...

I'm thinking of you.

Diane said...

It makes me very sad that my close family (Mum, Dad, sister) chose not to be closely involved in my childrens lives. My mum is not a "child friendly " person and my sis chose to have herself sterilised when she was 26 as she never wanted kids. I had a very very precious relationship with my Grandparents and I know my kids have missed out. I hope you enjoy your precious little grandaughter.